I was just going to go down to the trainstation as I remembered that I had forgotten my busscard at home (home where I was suppose to be going). which meant that I would have to buy a ticket in stead... crap... in the little town where mom and dad lives there's no "ticket-machine". So quickly I entered SJs' website... and I had forgotten from eariler this week how utterly slow that site has been this week. -.-'
- so I started to check up the train and prices... but it just wouldn't load!!!!! and I tryed again and again and yet again! but no... the time came closer and closer to the time for the train to come and leave. and then... the site just stopped working at all!
- Mom who was standing behind me said that she would pay the extra money it would cost for me to go with the train but I said no. to buy a ticket on the train cost like the doubble!!! (at least for the tour I'm going 50 for the ticket and yet another 50 for one buying it on the train) I was soooooo not going to pay the doubble price just because the site didn't work..
- I took the phone and called SJ... tok yet another ten to fifteen minutes... -.-' the train was long gone. *sigh* but the nice lady I talekd to helped me boook a ticket for the next train and I got the ticket to my mobile. but it stilll costed a bit more than it was supposed to cost
- but hey... I suppose I'll be able to get home today atleast... and tomorrow it's back to work.. which means I have to get up at 3 am! well that's my life... early mornings and eavnings...
*sigh*
- But I must admit that that has been the best about this two week vaccation, the fact that I have been able to be up as long as I wanted and sleep as long as I culd (as most to 8 am - I'm a wierd person)




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and we have so much left to do... or so it feels like...
- although complicatioins and some.. well complaints I have to say I think that I and the rest of the organizers are doing a good job. and hopefully most of the participants will enjoy it... or so I hope.

- even though I have learnt... in life... that no time, ever, can everyone be pleased with something you do.. and that s***s!

- although I'm right now on a two week vaccation... but I'm bored... -.-' I have like nothing to do... although that's sort of nice to... I have bought a new casting rod... and I wanna try that out... but tomorrow mom's gonna use the car... but I do have plans tomorrow... I'm gonna go bathing and relaxing with a close friend of mine ^^
- and next week I might go to Stockholm with a friend shopping... for something.. I only know I wanna go to the sience fiction bookstore in "Gamla stan" ^^'

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My aunt has passed away... she did today just a few minutes after 1 pm. ...

- I do have mixed feelings about this... I'm happy she finnaly got to pass on... concidering how much she must have suffered since her operation... I think she's entered a better place now. meeting with other relatives that has died aswell. - it helps to think like that... although... I feel empty...
- one of her daughters said something really nice when we visited my aunt at the hospital last week; I think she's gonna go and paint baskets with Dagmar. (another relative)
- Mom said after that, when we were leaving the hospital, that it made her feel better and she tryed to think about what she had heard. - and I aswell think it helps. - I also think she was welcomed by, my grandfather (her stepfather), her father, her mother and father in-law, and off course Dagmar and Vejne.

- I also have the belief that the soul doesn't only have one life, but more. I'm pretty sure we'll se her again... even if it's not in this life. - that's one of the things I try to keep myself to the most.

- and besides.. "The ones that loves us does not ever really leave us" ^^ as long as we all in my family keep her in our hearts she will never dessapear.

- is it wrong for me to feel relieved now? I do feel the sorrow, don't get me wrong... but I feel sort of guilty for not feeling even more sad...

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I'm gonna be an aunt again! my sister's pregnant!

- No wonder little Stina had such a rush with everything.. she can almost walk now! she's just a bit over ten months..
- Stina is Aunties little favorite ^.~ - and belive me, she's the cutest thing!

d**n!! by mistake i backed a page and tha whole thing got erased! stupid Fia! ah well I suppose I have to rewrite the whole thing -.-'

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- I had not been to the dentist for five years until today.

- I don't know how it is in other countries but in Sweden we get free dental care until we turn eighteen. and I had not been to the national dental service since then. I hate the dentists! Since I have not trust, confidence or what so ever for them. I mean going to the dentist, doesn't the patient have the right to know what wrong? especially if someone is "digging in your mouth"? well I didn't get to know much while I was going there, and I had diffirent dentists och dentist hygenists every time.
One year I got to know that there was starting to be a hole between two tooths but that had been noticed the year before - WTF? I hadn't been told about that.
- I was also supposed to have braces, but that was when my teeth was done growing... I still haven't gotten braces.

- anyhow... a few weeks back my dad talked me over to go to the dentist. he said that the dentist he and mom went to was really nice and good at his work. I still didn't wanna go, but I booked a day and time and today I went there! shaking a bit although I was mostly nerverous I suppose.
- when I finally got to meet the dentist the first impressioin of him I got was that he seemed calm and nice. so they took a few X-rays of my teeth for starters. but the dentist also said that since it had been five years since I had seen any dentist he wanted to take a panorama X-ray on my teeths. so I got to go to a diffirent room and stand in this really wierd machine which went around my head!!! O.O'
- when I got back to the room, the dentist showed me the photo, and he showed me the thing that has really pissed me off today! My wisdom teeths are coming up wrong. ... ... ...
- Wisdom teeths, or any teeths at all, are suppose to come up (or down) verticaly! but one of mine is growing horizontal!

Even though I haven't been to the dentist for five years my wisdom teeths started coming whilst I was still in High school! like ten years back! this teeth must've been shown on the X-rays they took! why didn't those bastards say anything? not anything about that at all?! it's my mouth d**n it!

- Although I must say that this new dentist is the best I've gone to and I understand why my dad talks so good about him and now I don't have to go to the dentist for another year and a half.
- although it took 940 kr (sek) out of my money! even after 300 kr in discount! although... that was for both examination, X-ray (including the panorama one) and the tartar. I hate that! it feels like the head is going to follow the tools they use to get it of!

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although the best thing about this weekend is the cruise mom and I went on ^^ it was my birthdaypresent for her... although she did pay the trip herself O.o'' - but I got her a massageoil on the boat instead! she said that I could buy her something on the boat instead.
- We had such a nice time. and I'm so glad I got to go on that trip! ^^I almost started to cry of happiness before we went to bed!
- althoguh the cruise (itself) was for only 22 h we got to shop a lot and got massages and just chill
- I wanna go on anothter "mother & daughter trip" with her ^^ we're having so much fun!
- whilst almost the whole boat were partying we're sleeping... but hear this, we didn't fall asleep until after 11pm!